28 Jul happy sunday
Today is the first time that any kind of happiness or joy is not sitting on top of a layer of excruciating anguish and sadness. It figures that the health system can make one feel as though they want to climb into bed for days on end and cry. At least we have a health system. It makes me so sad that in other countries, not too far from here, like Papua New Guinea, people line up in a queue for hours, take a number and wait to see a nurse. I wish there was something I could do about this, but, it would seem, that it is mostly outside of my or your control.
One can try though. It is at this point, when I think to itself ‘I have thirty or more years left! – What is possible in that time frame?’ Now you know how I feel. It would be ideal, if everyone in the world had access to good food, that each person had access to a good health system, that equity was something that we took seriously, but perhaps this can only happen if you take one step at a time, and it is to begin again.
Every gain I made was lost this past month. However, perhaps ‘it was the best thing that could have ever happened’. Dreams for example. I wouldn’t have woken up in the middle of last night with my path of action so very clear, if I had not been in hospital all that time, and given, incidentally the opportunity to clean out my mind of all the crap.
It is for starting again. It is the fact that I can see now, that in the beginning there is a limit to how much green smoothie, you can tolerate to begin with. ‘You know you are a health nut when you get excited about making a green smoothie’ and it is true. Two glass limit in the beginning, but spring is just a month away!
Since I have returned, my passion for health and indeed for fitness is even more palpable. It is just that I had to climb into bed for a week to cry away the sadness that comes from being removed from its world.
I hope you have a lovely day! 🙂 I am going to ring a friend 🙂 See you later! xxxo